Remember This Day -Part 2

I wrote a blog nearly 2 years ago that referred to another blog 2 years before that. If i haven’t blogged about worm hole blogs yet, this is the blog about that.

It has been in draft format because it contained a moan about the house I was renovating. It was right before I naively thought I could walk away from it and get ‘professionals’ in. This was in the wake of Brexit, all the good trades people had gone back to Poland and all I was left with were locals. However it is over, it is high time I said yes Max, you are over the finish line there there mate.

Anyway here is the draft:

See Remember this day. It was a message to my future self, to me now. (not now, now, then now, two years ago in the blog hole) It told me that quitting full time work was the right thing to do and that working for myself no matter in what, was better than giving up my time working for somebody else.

I was wrong. As of today I have decided that after giving it a go, after trying really hard to dedicate my time on my house, I’m going to step back and leave it to a competent professionals. I get really overwhelmed every time I step inside. Even with Paul sporadically onboard it’s too much of an emotional rollercoaster. I just want to get on with my life and pay someone else to take it on. It feels good to have decided that. I’ve learnt. Yeah I could do it, but do I really have want to. Oh but think of all the things you’ll learn, people say. All I’ve learnt is what a substandard job I’ve done. I think, i might have been able to do it say if i had a partner…. better still they were an electrician with three hands…

So its going to cost a lot more but its saving me from a melt down every time i discover some other part of the house crumbling before my eyes. Ive put a lot of pressure on my self in turn on my relationships. So im sorry. I give up.

There there Maxine, look you made it!